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The Adoption Card

Posted on: September 3, 2011

So I’m not sure how many people are into this show, The Glee Project, it’s over now but one of the girls on the show, Lindsay, was adopted.  A lot of people peg her as the annoying one on the show. She didn’t talk about how she was adopted until a few episodes in.  She talked about her feelings of always having to be good and perfect.  People didn’t react to her well but I liked her.  She was my favorite.  I can see how she would come off as annoying but I understand everything she said.  The feelings of not knowing yourself because your so caught up in trying to be good for everyone else.  She brought it up in a few episodes and people would say things like “oh she’s just using the adoption card so people will feel bad for her and want her to win.”  That bothered me, she’s just telling the truth and saying how she felt just like everyone else did.

In other news…

My brother.  For the past week he’s been horrible.  His friend got arrested for stealing stuff from cars and beating up 2 kids.  He got off with probation.  My mom didn’t want my brother hanging out with this kid for obvious reasons and my brother just doesn’t understand it.  A few days ago he lied to my parents saying he was going to help another friends uncle.  So me and my dad brought him to where he said the uncle lived and it turned out to be the friends house who got arrested.  My dad wouldn’t leave without him so he had no choice but to get back in the car.  On the half hour ride home he yelled at my dad and called up my mom saying things like “I’m going to burn the tax papers when I get home, I’m gonna tear the roof off the garage, I’m going to run in the middle of the road and get hit by a car, you guys are racist, you don’t love me.”  It was horrible.  We get home and my brother goes to the garage and takes a hammer to the side of it.  My parents get the hammer away from him and then he came inside.  Once inside he went to his room and grabbed the 2 road flares he has and threatened to set them off in the house.  My mom took them away.  Then he grabbed a pocket knife and started yelling at my mom “you’re going to regret this.”  He didn’t do anything with the knife but it scared me.  While all of this is happening I’m hiding in my room with my dog.  Eventually he locked himself in his room and blasted music until he calmed down.

Today his friend was supposed to come over (the one who got arrested) but it ended up that he couldn’t come so he asked my brother to go over to his house and my parents said no because there would be no supervision.  So my mom, my brother, and I went food shopping.  When we got to the store we all got out and my brother says he’s walking to his friends house (through bad neighborhoods with no means of communication because the phone is off).  We don’t think he’s serious so my mom just says be back in a half hour.  We go inside and I call my oldest brother and tell him to try to call my brother.  He does with no answer.  About 10 minutes later I get a call from my brother saying he made it to rite aide (down the block) and he wouldn’t stop until he got to his friend’s house.  My mom and I quick check out with what we have in the cart and go to get him.  We see him standing by the car in the parking lot.  My mom starts crying and I was just pissed off.  The rest of the car ride my brother was just yelling and saying how he didn’t do anything wrong and we overreact to everything.  He apologized to my mom about an hour after we got home but this is getting ridiculous.  We just really don’t know what to do about him.

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  • vampporcupine: Ahhh...you are so CUTE! I don't know why you look at yourself the way that you do. It may be adoption related or might not. You are adorable :). Remeb
  • Susie: I understand where your feelings are coming from ~ and I know it is so hard to overcome the "not good enough" image you have of yourself. I want to t
  • Susie: The unknown and wondering in adoption is enough to drive you crazy. Not that this probably helps at all, but I was always thinking of my son not only

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