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Intentions

Posted on: May 27, 2012

I think what separates good and bad is intentions.

I also think my mom always assumes I have the worst intentions.  I don’t know when it started happening but you when people just all of a sudden expect more of you but never really say it.  Well I guess that’s how it is.  I feel like I always have to be careful about what I say around her, or more specifically how I say it.  She just assumes the worst of everything I say.  All my questions have suddenly become sarcastic and defensive when they’re just genuine questions.  And when I try to talk to her about it I’m starting a fight.  I don’t know how to fix this.

I feel like we always fight now.  I don’t know what is going on and why things are like this but I want them to change.  I also don’t appreciate that she always tries to understand what I’m saying and she just assumes she’s right when it probably isn’t what I’m thinking.  She’ll start talking to me like “I know you’re upset about ____ and you’re showing it by _____.” and it’s like I’m not.  I understand that she is trying to understand me but if I try to explain what I really feel don’t yell at me and tell me I’m lying.

I never say anything to hurt someone.

I don’t question things to prove a point.

My intentions aren’t ever bad.  I don’t want to hurt anyone ever.  I might be curious.  And I’m always never sarcastic and if I am I say it while I’m laughing.

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